Falling behind, and I haven't even Started yet

April 10, 2007

I have always been known to be a slow poke. The catchphrase of my life is "hold on" and has been ever since I could utter the words "I'll be there in a minute". I suppose I just never was motivated to rush or get in much of a hurry. Yeah, I'm one of "those" people you get impatiently annoyed with because I just have no concept of time. My life's greatest flaw. My only consolation is that perhaps I'm bound to live longer since I'm just not in a big hurry to get life over with.

I'm generally used to feeling behind on school work or a ton of other projects I'm wanting to get around to. But lately I feel as though I am falling behind everyone in life in general- recently so many things are just changing. Everyone is moving on, following new directions, making decisions....and I - well I just realized that I'm 3 days late for declaring a topic for my Honor's thesis, I'm a few months behind for figuring out summer plans, and I'm struggling just to figure out which classes to register for next year byond the mere 16 hours that I have left for graduation. At least I'm ahead of the game on one thing- if I had thought about it I guess I could have graduated at December- but that would only mean I'd have to figure the next step sooner....totally not my style. :)

It's not as though I don't have options. Sort of. Basically, I can either move to a city and essentially pay to volunteer for something related to my interests- or I can just stay close to home and work like crazy to pay for next school year. This can not be interesting to read about- but it is on my mind.

Here comes the kink: my sister just told me last week that she will be moving to Alabama less than 10 days before I return to the states this June!! Now, I have missed my friends lately- but I have longed to spend time with my sister for probably 2 years now. Last summer was crazy with the wedding- and I left for school while she was on her honeymoon and didn't see her for 2 months...then of course, I spent a week and a half home for Christmas before coming to England- and now it seems that I will be lucky if I see her once or twice before returning to Georgetown in the fall.

This makes me incredibly sad. Of course, I don't think it has really sunk in yet that she won't be around when I get home- because I've gotten used to being away from everyone over here- but I am inclined to move to Alabama this summer for the 8 weeks before fall semester if I find it hard justifying a loan to do some volunteer interning in Ky- if anyone reading this knows of something I can do around Fort Ruckers let me know!!!

Ultimately, I'm not horribly concerned about the fact that I have no clue what life will bring after 2 months from today. Maybe that fact is something to worry about---I'm sure it will all work out one way or another. I suppose I have let myself become a little too disconnected from my life as a college student belonging to the Bluegrass.....a little focus is what is needed.

....but until that happens, Kristie and I are planning our next trip to Dublin followed by Paris! I can't think of a better way to end my European travels to an end before slaving away on those essays come next Tuesday. We're just squeezing in every bit of excitement we can while it can last.